I wasn’t sure how this birthday would go honestly. On Sunday I started to feel sad just thinking about it. She wouldn’t be able to eat the cake, she wouldn’t be interested in opening any presents, the party would really be for us. Then my husband gently reminded me how important it would be for the rest of the family to celebrate Rosemary's day just like we do for everyone else. The others would be able to experience celebrating Rosemary and be just as excited to blow out her candles on her cake, and open her presents for her, most of which two year olds can typically do themselves. Her dinner and dessert would be her normal formula given through her G-tube instead of our birthday dinner of spaghetti and cake. And that's okay.
Yesterday, I started to get more in the mood as I went to Fresh Market to order her cake. By the evening of setting up the dining/art room table for her birthday, that excitement began to build and return in which I was all familiar with for each of our other my kids' birthdays.
As I woke up this morning on her big day, I was happy again, excited, and full of joy to celebrate Rosemary for just who she is and where she is at this moment. The evening was a joy, with soda pop in glass bottles, spaghetti, & cake I kept it simple for our family but fun . . . and there were definitely some memorable moments made that I will never forget!
So this is the journey of a mama in search of what normal feels like for this dear one's particular milestones in this life. I'm learning that while her normal may appear differently then ours, it doesn't necessarily mean that we're the normal ones. She teaches us so much! I'm loving it!
That sweetie, cutie pie of mine! Happy 2nd Birthday Rosie!!!
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